My name is Esmeralda, but I go by Esme since college. My oldest friends still call me Es. I answer to all of them. I’m 27 years old and most days I have to think about it before knowing for sure. I am originally from Chicago, but currently live in Tampa, Florida. My husband, Tim, is in the Air Force and this is our first year in the military. We have a 7 month old son named Jude. I am a stay at home mom and I usually love it when I don’t hate it. I have three dogs named Jovie, Oliver, and Teddy.

Before this, I had a job that I hated. I was still recovering from a past relationship that had ended years ago (I tend to dwell on things,) and I had no idea that Tim and I would ever date, much less share a life together.  Back then, I only knew three things. I needed to stop working at places that made me miserable. I had to shut the door on my past, and I needed to find a way to stop living my life through television. I have now fully resolved one of those three things.

Before that, I went to an Arts College. I graduated with a BA in Creative Writing and instead of being inspired by all the like minded individuals who could probably bleed ink from their veins if you poked them hard enough, I was so taken aback, so floored, so irrevocably intimidated by the talent in the room, that I very quickly gave up. I did what I had to do to get my “writing” done, get good grades, got my degree, and walked away with a strong sense of failure before I ever even really got started.

Now, I’m a mother, a wife, a dog mom, a daughter, a friend, and a giant regret to my ex. I like to dabble in writing, shop obsessively for home decor, and return fifty percent of the things that I order from Amazon Prime. I cook, I clean, I change diapers, walk the dogs, and yell at my husband when he gets home. I don’t like talking to anyone on the phone, but I’ll text the shit out of people if we’re having a conversation. I used to read stacks upon stacks of books when I was younger, but now I binge watch movies and television. I work out late at night when my husband can’t function and my son is asleep. That’s the only real ME time that I have now. There are those who sleep and those who go to sleep and I go to sleep around 2 to 4 in the morning. I love my dogs way too much. I drink way too little and I welcome you all to read my following blog posts. Most will be about my life, experiences, advice and tips, stories, and whatever transpires in my day to day.

“the day you accept yourself for who you are, flaws and all…is the moment nothing can bother you. you are you’re own killer and there is nothing worse than not believing in yourself.” – r. m. drake